Christmas was always my favourite time of year…
Until it wasn’t.
The first time I didn’t want to do Christmas was the year after my brother died. The second time was when we lost our daughter, Ava. Suddenly a season that had always meant magic and comfort felt heavy in a way I didn’t know how to carry.
This video was filmed shortly after losing Ava. My dear friend Jay Riehl saw how broken I was and dragged me out to the studio for the day. It was my birthday, another thing I didn’t feel like celebrating. He knew I needed somewhere to put everything that I was going through.
I’m grateful to say that I’m back to loving Christmas again. It’s truly become a special time of year for me once more. But I still reflect on the people who should be here with me, and I hold them close in my heart. Eric, Ava, Ted.
This song is for anyone who struggles at this season… for any reason.